I am curious. I am fascinated. I like to wonder. I like to explore. An adventure of the mind.
This can get me in trouble…but I don’t want to write about that today. I want to write about discovery. The freedom to flip over that rock and see what’s underneath. What if what is underneath is just as much a part of that rock as the rock itself? What if what’s underneath is even more amazing than the rock?
What if there is more. I recently heard someone say, “There isn’t more. Be satisfied.” He was speaking in reference to Jesus. He was saying if we truly understood what we had in Jesus we wouldn’t be looking for more. That possibly, if we were looking for more we hadn’t really encountered Jesus at all. hmmmm….I get where he’s coming from. I totally agree that Jesus is all we need. And yet.
And yet, everything about Him provokes me to explore. I would be the 4 year old on his lap asking question after question. “How did this? What about that? Why did you? Can we?” There is so much to discover, how can we stop at the surface? You don’t set out to explore the ocean by diving into just the first two feet? No way! You make sure you’re outfitted with deep sea diving equipment so you can go as far as you possibly can!
So I’m diving in…I’m exploring the person of Jesus, salvation, true faith, the multi-facets of grace, the finished work of the cross, freedom, joy – being who God has made me to be. The biggest thing I’m exploring is love. The love of God, the love of my savior. The freedom it brings, the peace and joy that comes with love.
Now, I have a working knowledge of these things. I have answers to most questions that people bring to me about any of those topics. But I want to flip over those rocks and see what else is crawling around. I want to go deeper and experience further than I ever have before.
What if we are the prayer? What if the Kingdom of Heaven is inside of me like Luke 17:21(KNJV) says? What if because Jesus lives in me that I carry an open heaven wherever I go like John 1:51 (KNJV) suggests? What if I don’t need to take up my cross because Jesus already did? What if I don’t need to focus on dying daily but living daily? What if there are revelations, deeper truths than what we already understand about these topics? What if we live from the wrong side of the cross more than we realize? What if we’re walking in religion and performance and don’t even know it? What are the implications of all of these what ifs? What if there’s more? I’m okay with more. What I’m not okay with – is missing it. I’m not okay with going on another 10 or 20 years with half of the revelation because I was satisfied with what everyone else accepted as truth.
I trust the God of Wonders to guide me; to guide this girl that used to lay in her room at 4 years old and imagine traveling the universe holding His hand. I trust that He’s big enough to handle it if I get it wrong and that He’ll lovingly bring me back on course…I also believe that I can discover something else true and real even when on the wrong path. God’s cool like that. He’s not limited to my map.
And maybe I won’t settle at just turning the rock over, maybe I’ll get really curious, really brave and just break it open altogether…
I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.